Mailing my registration form (and $1200 application fee) to the adoption agency…

It feels like a gigantic step (and a huge commitment) but it also feels like exactly the right thing to be doing.  I remember how lost and unhappy I was, consulting with doctors over and over, and constantly having to compromise between what seemed right and what seemed necessary.  I’m so much happier now that I’m on a different path.  And I love this agency – they’re exactly what I was looking for.  They do open adoptions, so the birthmothers choose the adopting parents.  That just makes so much more sense to me!  I mean, I never liked the idea that some agency was going to decide if I was “good enough” to be a parent.  But it seems very, very right to have a woman choose the mother of her child.